BloodyJunk

Slit your throat and watch you bleed, the demons dance around my feet, Cheering me to do some more, i want you dead inside the morgue. You let me down, and hurt me bad. Look at me! Im getting sad. your blood smells sweet you're on your knees, pleading me to end the pain. but to go quickly you must gain all my respect you lost. I want you gone, why wont you die? Tears well up into my eyes, cut off your balls and hear you scream is something that i only have dreamed. And now that your body is cold, My soul is something that i sold.

3-20-05 ...i feel like i want to cry, but crying wont cure anything really. Once again i havent eaten in about 4 days. Im on spring break. I found out i more than likely have to retake the 8th grade again. I wish i could talk to mom about it, but she wouldnt understand. pretty much everyday i think, "god, life would be so much easier if i just blew my fucking head off." I wanna die, but then again i dont. When the light cast me out, cruelty has certinly taken pity on me. I just want to hurt myself because i just hate myself. I want to be hurt, Im just so stupid and fat and ugly. God i just hate myself, HATE!!! I dont blame the kids at school

I only have a picture, You've changed. You matured and grew. I only have a memory, we were children, you were my best friend and my brother. I only have a tear, its shed for you. Ill give it to you if you like. I only have my heart, but you hate me. I wouldnt trust you with it. You helped make it fragile. I only have a knife, You hurt me, let me return the favor. I only have a gun, Scared? You should be, you helped taint me. I only have a tounge, these words are for you, My brother, my enemy, Kyle...fuck you.